Thoughts From Max

I was thinking about that, the title… look… up. Haha. Anyways. Is there really safety in the darkness? People live two lives, especially some Christians, there’s the “church” person and then there is the “me” person. Do you get what I’m saying. People act, talk, do things differently around people that have different expectations of them, I admit I do it to sometimes. If a person really wants to be more like God, then why do we try and keep part of ourselves from Him. Idk. I’ve just been thinking about that today.

It’s kinda weird how you can listen to a song and get that out of it. But it’s also really cool. I mean, if every thing I came to realize after paying attention to lyrics never came to light, I would miss out on a lot of stuff. And that’s another thing I think people, especially “Christians” need to work on. There seems to be a mentality to me about how if you watch a certain show or go to a movie or listen to secular music then you are a bad person… In my opinion you can learn a lot from a not necessarily biblicaly based movie or a secular song.

Anyways. That’s my ubber serious side for you. Now for the randomness :]

We went to church today, and like it was really good. But I couldn’t really get into some of the worship. It was hymns, I mean eeewwww. Haha. I know that they are appreciated by a lot of people… but not by me. I’m more of an get up and jump kinda guy… like grr. Hymns. Lolz.

And now it looks like it’s totally going to rain, but that’s okay. We need it. If it rains, the grass grows… that means I can mow more lawns. That means that I get some extra cash… which would totally rock. Not going to lieeee.

Anyways… I’m going to leave you with that random serious goblygook.

Oh, here’s the song that made me think of all that.

There’s nothing I can say to build these bridges back
Against the tides that washed them away
The life has left this room
Like a thousand fires gone black against the sky and scarlet moon
The smoke is in the air, choking out the sun
It’s rising in the air, I can’t see
And I will find you there, somewhere in the dark
Buried in a place between dead and broken hearts
There’s safety in the darkness, there’s safty in the dark
I have left these shores to face the tempest night
That stirs the stars against the waters with its storms
The sirens sing their song
It’s like a thousand hands that pull me down and break the course I travel on
The ocean fills my lungs, drowning out the sun
It’s rising in my lungs, I can’t breathe
I close my eyes to see the light that’s leading me

Something isn’t right. It feels like I want something. Actually. I know what that something is. But I know I can’t have that. It’s not what’s in my God’s plan for me right now. And I hate that it’s not. Because it’s the one thing that I want. Have you ever had that feeling. It’s so not fun. Let me tell you. I mean serriously. I could go on for hours telling you about this one thing. But I won’t because it’s not worth it. It’s just not.

I would assume that you’ve all had those days that were fun, but at the same time they were a hell for you. Well, hell is a strong word, but a prison. Seeing something, doing something, have someone remind you of something that would have been better left alone. I would take a venture to guess that you have. If you haven’t than I envy you. I serriously do. Anyways. This is begining to get pointless. Going on like this. Anyways. I’ll leave you with a song. It’s by Skillet. It’s called, “Your’s To Hold.”  I guess what we all have to do is give it to God.

So do you guys have those days when you wonder if up is really down, and down is really up? Hmm. Well hopefully I’m not alone. But I guess you have to just get right back up and try it all again. Over the last couple days I’ve done alot (Yes… I know that your thinking… “Max… doing alot… no way!!” But it’s true. :])

Satruday our family worked out in the yard all day… We had ten yards of barkdust delivered. That stuff is so not fun to put in a wheelbarrow and dump where you want it and then rake it all out. And it was hot out, and I was to lazy to go put shorts on. But that’s okayyy cuz jeans are just thebomb.com not gunna lie. After I got done with the barkdust stuff I ended up mowing the lawn. That wasnt’ actually all that bad. I just plugged in my iPod and went… listened to some Switchfoot, Hawk Nelson, and August Burns Red. I was totally rockin’ out. \m/

Later that night, we had a friend over, and had fajitas for dinner… ooohhhh my goodness they were totally awesome. Like serriously. I loved them. :] We also went and saw a movie… Iorn Man. If you havn’t seen it… go. It was awesome. Explosions, flying, and gunsss what more could you want in a movie??? I then proceded to go home and talk on the phone till the wee hours of the night with a friend.

Yeasterday we had church. That was pretty cool. I’m going to be trying out to play on the adult worship team sometime in the near future, prolly sometime in the middle of June. I can’t wait. I love getting up there and using my talents like that. Speaking of guitars, I’m going to get a new acoustic guitar soon…. :]]]

Well, I’ve got to get going. Right now I’m listening to the song, “Fix You” by Coldplay… if you haven’t listened to it… go find it somewhere. It’s totally aweosme.

Laterz!

Here’s something that I wrote the other day. Hope you all enjoy it.

You thought you had it all.

Then you went and threw it all away.

You thought you’d be the next big thing.

What happened to all those dreams?

Those dreams you threw away…

You lied.

And cried.

Then you went and died.

Was it worth it all?
Just to throw it all away.

I gave you every thing that I had.

Would it change the out come of it all?

Or would you still be gone?

What happened to all those dreams?

Those dreams you threw away…

You lied.

And cried.

Then you went and died.

Was it worth it all?

Just to throw it away.

Just to throw it all away.

In the end…

Will it be alright?

In the end…

Will it change…

In the end…

Will you be dead?

My love will last.

Never forsaken, not till the end.

Was it worth it all in the end?

Just to change everything about yourself.

Change it for what…

Sooo. I played on my youth groups worship team Wednesday night… not gunna lie… it pretty much rocked. It was a totally awesome night of worship. Like yeah, for the first time in a long time the kids were actually getting into it. I mean, like serriously into it. It was so awesome. Anyways. Yeah, i just wanted to tell ya’ll about that.

The songs we did were… “Fire Fall Down”, “Summer Rain”, “The Time Has Come”, and “Promises”…
With my electric I was totally rocking out on The Time has come and Promises. I mean, seriously… I was actually playing some leads and what not. It was totally awesome. And I hate leads.

Have you guys noticed how many times I’ve used the word “awesome”? It’s really starting to get on my nerves. Not going to lie. But anyways, I got my paycheck today… and it was like $40. Don’t you just love getting money.. it’s like one of the better feelings out there. Especialy when you work for it. Like not just standing around work. But like work that actually means something. Am I making sense? Or are these just meaningless words to you?

Well. I’m going to get going. We might go see a movie tonight… then in the morning I have work.. that’ll be oh so fun. Then after that I’m going down to Guitar Center to look at some acoustic guitars. So yeah… laters my friends.