Thoughts From Max

So. I havn’t written on here all week, so I think that as today is Friday and the weekend aproches that I should at least put some thoughts down. I don’t know where my time has gone, it seems like I always keep going, and I never stop. But that’s a good thing, I mean life would be borring if all I did was sit around and watched TV all day, I think I would end up killing myself if that’s what my life was like. Anyways, back to the point of this post. I’ve got so much to do, I’m working this afternoon, I’ve got a bunch of stuff to get done for Civil Air Patrol least of which is planning the Cadet Conference, I have youth group tonight and I’m playing on the youth worship team, tomorrow I have work and a birthday party to go to afterwords. I think that’s all off of the top of my head, but that’s just for today and this weekend.

I guess I’ll fill you in on what my week has been like. Monday wasn’t really anything all the special. I woke up sick, that was quite icky. I took nyquil the night before and I woke up with this like hangover feelingish thing it was awful. I couldn’t wake straight. It hurt to think. I didn’t bother going into work that day, which was probably a good thing. I did however have shooting that night, I didn’t do all that bad actually. I think I was shooting in the 240’s. That’s about it for Monday. Tuesday, I woke up, and went to work. I wouldn’t say that it was a bad day or that it was a good day there. After work, I came home and took a shower. I don’t think you really know how nice it is to take a shower after you’ve been working with those kids all day. I then proceded to go to youth group at Vineyard. It was a nice time, I got to see some people that I havn’t seen in a while. They are going on a missions trip this summer, I’m kinda not happy about the fact that I won’t be able to go. Wednesday I don’t think that I did any thing all that exciting, to be honest, I don’t remember it all that well. I think I just catched up on some school and fun stuff like that. That night though, I went to a movie with my brother and Sammi. It was one of the worst movies that I’ve seen in a long time. The International. I wasn’t able to fallow it at all. Didn’t make any sense. Yeasterday I had work. Icky. I really didn’t want to work all day, but guess what, that’s not the way it worked out. After that I had tubing with CAP. I brought Sammi along. It was a good time. The tubing place was so icy, we got going wicked fast. I don’t have all that much planned for today. I have to go into work this after noon, I’m not happy about that in the least, but w/e. And then later tonight I have youth group. That will be a good time, I hope.

That’s about it as far as an update goes. I really don’t have much more that I’ve been up to. I’m just so bussy. Like I said, not a bad thing, but not really a good thing either. I’ve been listening to a lot of acoustic music lately, and playing it on my guitar as well. It’s so pretty. If you want some cool bands to check out go look at Yellowsecond(They aren’t all acoustic, but they are pretty sweet.), The Scene Aesthetic, Jon Foreman… all in all some great stuff out there, you jsut have to go looking for it.

Anyways. I guess that I should get going. So I’ll try and post something with a little more feeling in it later. I hope that you have a good day and it isn’t all that bad.

Someday we’ll find out what it’s like to not be looking in from outside.

So I havn’t posted an update in a long time. Life has just been bussy for me, I really don’t have any excuse other than that, it’s just been going and going. School, work, CAP, youth group, and all that other stuff that just goes on. I don’t really remember what I said that last time that I updated you, so I’ll just go back and let you in on the last couple of days of my little life. Friday. Such a weird, but good day, in a way. I worked all morning and afternoon, that in and of itself wasn’t bad. That kids were okay, and I actually got to ski. I also taught a snowboard lesson. Don’t really know how that one worked out. The kid hopefully got it’s money worth though. After that, I came home and took a shower. That felt so nice. You have no idea what it’s like to be skiing and sweating all day, it’s so nasty. A nice warm shower is so welcome after all of that. Me and my brother basically had to like fly to get down to Concord on time for worship team practice, it went pretty okay. First time that I’ve led in like 6 months. Not really up to my standards, but that’s okay. Nothing is ever perfect in life. Youth group was nice. I’m oficialy a student leader now. Oh joy. But that’s not sarcasam. I really think that I’ll be able to do something awesome with those kids. They really need some focus on who God really is. And what he wants to do with them. Saturday. Work. Work. Work. What a day. It was not all that great. Until the night. I went down to Drop The Hamer. What an awesome time. People there a great. Awesome chips and dip. And then they just had a great band doing the worship. Long night. I didn’t get home till almost 10:30. I wasn’t in bed till about 12. W/e though. Today was pretty intense. I woke up, and drove Tye and myself down to church. Listened to Underoath in the car. Good music right there. Jon, the pastor had some awesome thoughts. Came home. Played my guitar. Learned a new song. Todd and Debb and Levi came over for dinner. Nice family.

Anyways. Wrote a note on facebook. Read it if you want.

Here’s something I wrote the other day. Hope you like it.

Sometimes, I wonder where I stand with you not around.
This little world of yours falls all around.
We live on this uneven ground.
Is this how you want it to be?
Forever a distance between you and me.
This road we’re on is winding down,
And I want to get out of this town.

Was it worth it all, to just run away?
Fleeing in the wind all that’s left are these memories.
I can’t stand to see who you’ve become.
Let’s turn back time and remember the way it used to be.

I remember the smile on your face.
I remember the way we used to laugh.
All those nights we just layed awake.
So give in to who you used to be,
Return to the home you once knew.
Return to these arms open wide.

Sometimes I remember who you were,
And the smile returns to my face.
You don’t know where you’ve gone.
Is this the way you want it to be?
Well fine, this road you’re on is winding down.
And this town has been burned to the ground.

Was it worth it all just to run away?
Can’t you see all these memories?
I can’t stand to see who you are.
Let’s turn back and remember the way it used to be.

I remember the smile on your face.
I remember the way we used to laugh.
All those nights we just layed awake.
So give in to who you used to be.
Return to the home you once knew.
Return to these arms open wide.

Good bye, I can’t stand all these lies.
Good bye, I can’t take you being fake.
Good bye, my friend.
I can’t help you find yourself.
I can’t help you find yourself.

Bring back that smile.
I’ll trade in these tears today, just to hear your laugh.
I’d lay awake with you.
So give in to who you used to be.

Ahhh. So I havn’t updated any of you on what’s going on with me recently, and for that I truly do appologize. I’ve been so tired, I havnt’ really had the time to just sit down and just think about anything. This week is the Mass vacation week, and next week is the NH vacation week, so I’ll be working way more than I want to. But that’s okay. I guess a little extra money won’t hurt me. But I’m so sick of people that just think life is about money. The only think that I’ve really gotten in a long time, was the new multi-effects pedal that I bought on Sunday for my guitar, it was five hundred bucks, but other than that, I really havn’t gotten anything. My money usually goes straight into the bank. I”ve been doing a lot with my youth group recently, I’m offically a student leader, that’s nice, I think. I don’t know, I’ve got a lot of ideas that I think will be really nice, but I don’t know. I don’t just want to barge in. I’m good at that though, so it will work out.

I think that the one thing I really want to say tonight, is that we all need to live our lives like today will be the lst day we’re alive. We never know when life is going to end, and we just need to live our lives and have no regrets. I mean, really, find what you love, and do it. And we need to be around the people that really care about us, and care about what we care about in life. All that really maters is that we find out what we have a pasion for and that we use it for God.

I don’t really know what else I should tell you about. I can’t really think right now. I don’t know why. Maybe it’s because I have so much just floating around in my mind. And for that I really do appologize.

Hello world, I am Max. And I have decided that I will be entering on a journey to your planet. I know that this might seem like a strange idea to you, but I live on Mars, and I would like to see the wonderful blue seas that you have. So, I have no idea what the point of that was, I was just being random, I guess. Kind of strange for me, but that’s okay. Life is to short to waste. Or that’s what they tell me anyways. I really appologize for the lack of posting this week, I really havn’t been in any state of mind to come up with any sort of a decent thought. But tonight, I can actaully think, so I’m happy about that. I really don’t know what I’ve been up to all week, it just kinda seems like it’s gone by in a blur. I know that I’ve already told you some of this, but I woke up Sunday and I just felt like crap, I really did. And then Monday, I wasn’t much better at all, but that’s okay, I guess we just have to keep going. Tuesday, was kind of a wasted day, or the night was at least, but what ever. Wednesday, I had some friends over and we had pizza and watched a movie. It was a really nice time, that’s what friends are for, right? I think that’s what they are for. Thursday night, holy cow, Civil Air Patrol, what a night, it just like, didn’t go like it should have. But, I guess that means that something better is going to happen along the way. Or atleast, I hope that something better is going to happen along the way. I really didn’t feel all that good on Thursday either, actually. Friday, I had work durring the day, it went really nicely, actually, the kid that I had was really awesome, and I just got to free ski durring the morning, so that was enjoyable. At youth group Friday night, I really didn’t feel well, I think it was cuz I didn’t have any good food, but I couldn’t tell you for sure. That brings us to today, I had work. It was a blast, actually. I had the most awesome group this morning. They were really really awesome. They had never ever skiied before, and they just picked it right up, I had them up on the lift in like under an hour. And then, in the afternoon, I went out and cliniced because there were no groups that they needed me for. Translation, I got skiied to actually ski instead of teach. Mucho coolness. Then tonight, I went to go and see a movie with Tye, Sam, and Meghan… after the movie, we went to Friendlys then Walmart. It was pretty much an awesome time. (:

I guess that brings us up to the present. So now I really don’t know what to tell you about. I’m kinda addicted to a band right now. The Scene Aesthetic. They are this really good acoustic band. They have a beautiful sound. Like. Really. I don’t know how else to describe it. You need to go listen to them right now. I’ve been getting a lot of new music recently. They other day I got a CD by The Classic Crime, it’s really good, you should check them out as well. I got the new CD from The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus. It was wicked good as well. I don’t know. Maybe it’s just the fact that I like music, and that’s why I find all of these so good.

I think that’s all I’m going to tell you about for now. It brings you up to today, and that’s all that I really have to say. I hope that when you read this you are having a good day or night, what ever it may be.

Uggg.

Today has not been all that great of a day. I’m so sick of being sick. The thing is, it’s not really that kind of sick where you can’t do anything. It’s more the type of  sick where it just makes everything go slower. I hate it. Hate hate hate it. I didn’t really do anything all that important today either, I would have to say the biggest thing that I acomplised besides school was the fact that I got the website for Un-Chained done, I’m so happy to finally get that done and out of the way. Hopefully soon I can move on from the internship to actually having a job. Last night, such a waste of a night. I had a CAC meeting down at UNH, mind you, that’s an hour and a half away. The point of the meeting was to do down there and present an idea to the AAS so that they can sponsor the NHWG Cadet Conference so that we can use facilitys at the college for free. Anyways. To make this incredibly long story short, we drive down there, get there, have a FIVE MINUTE MEETING, and go home. Drove for legit three hours… and talk for five minutes. I was pissed to say the least. I think that’s the biggest pet peave that I have, I don’t like it when people waste my time. It really really makes me angry.

I was hoping that I had some awesome philiospoical post for you, but I really don’t think that I do. I mean, the only thing that I can kinda sorta think up is that we all just need to take time, and slow our lives down. It seems like all people do is go, go, go. And we all just need to let go a little.

Okay. Slightly missleading blog title. I’m not paranoid, I just wanted to throw that out there, so I didn’t get accused of being suicidle or anything like that. Anyways, it’s the title of a book, that was  really good, in my humble opinion. It as about a guy, that stole money from his company, and they found out. They threatened him with either going to jail, or becoming a spy in another company. Anyways. If you want to learn the rest, go read it. It was uber wicked good. I think that I have neglected posting in this, my bad. I really don’t know what to talk about, so I shall update you on the last few days of my life.

Saturday was an okay day, I didn’t really do anything all that important. I had my NCSA review boards. It went well. I knew all the people that were doing the interviews. It was actually quite funny, when I walk in they all were like, “HAAS!!” I laughed. Okay. They all didn’t do that, but Lt. Col. Laura did. He’s the coolest senior member that I do believe I’ve had the pleasure of meeting. They really didn’t ask me all that many hard questions, so that was cool. My interview was only 12 minutes long, that was the shortest one out of my whole squadron. I hope that I get picked to go to COS of Blue berret. That would be pretty sweet. After that, I went down to an indoor track so that one of my cadets could pass his PT. He did, and another one did as well, so that was a good couple hours of my time. I even ran a 6:48 mile. My best yet. When I got home, I had a few friends over, and we played video games, watched a movie, all tha fun stuff. It was a really nice time. I tried talking to people on the phone that night, but everyone was bussy. :/

Yesterday, I woke up, and I felt like crap. It was really awful, and then, I went to work. That was actually, nice, but alot of people were out sick. So, I hope I don’t have what they have, cuz some of them were throwing up and all that nasty stuff. But so far, all it’s been is a runny knose, a headache, my throat is sore, and I go from being hot to being really cold. Anyways, back to work. I got a really, kind of dificult, because I had a split lesson. One of the kids knew how to turn and stop really good, but the other, not so much. I finally got them up on the chair lift after lunch though, so that was really nice. I like being able to go on the chair lift, it’s a really nice change of pace then going on the magic carpet aka the bunny hill all day. After work, Sami came over, and she came out to dinner with my family, and then we just kinda hung out. It was a pretty fun time.

Today, today. Lets see. I woke up feeling worse than I did yeasterday. But, hey such is life, and I’m not going to complain. I got started with school, which was okay. I wouldn’t say that it was fun, but it wasn’t bad. Then after that, I went to work. It was good. None of the little three year olds cried, and they listened, kind of. But it was way to warm out. I didn’t even have my jacket on, I really probably should have since I’m kind of sick. But hey, I’m a rebel. Ick. I keep haveing to pop my nukles. I didn’t spell that right. W/e. Then, I came home and just was lazy for a while. I needed that. It was nice to rest for a little. I went to a movie. Taken. It was really one of the best movies that I’ve seen in a while. It was about a guys daughter that was kidnaped by sex-slave traders. He goes after them. Kills alot of people. Not that the killing made it good, but it was really intense, and it really shows people what the real world is like.

So that brings you up to right now. And I think I’m going to go. My knose is running. And it’s annoying the crap out of me. So. I shall write something more in the next day or two. Maybe something more philiosophical. Idk. We’ll see what the week brings.

I will find you. And I will kill you.