Have you ever had something that you wanted to say, but you didn’t know how to say it so that it would truly convene what you wanted to get across? I find myself not being able to express what I want to. I keep saying the wrong thing. I keep confusing the person I don’t want to. It’s more frustrating than I could ever want it to be. I think that sometimes soemethings that should be so easy are just made harder by our own stupidity. Maybe I’m just making it harder than it needs to be. Maybe I’m trying to be overly eloquent. Maybe I just need to strip it all down to the basic meaning of what I’m trying to say. I guess that’s what’s driving me insane this weekend. Not the fact that my plans got changed, my plans got ruined, but the fact that I can’t say what I want to mean. If only I were able to get it out when it was the right time to get it out…
This weekend… what a mess it’s been. What a beautiful mess it’s been. I think that there can be beauty in everything if we make the effort for there to be. Friday night, I was planning on going to a lock-in down in Manchester with some people from youth group, but that all kinda fell apart at the last instant. I ended up going to dinner with my family, which was nice, and going down to Nashua to get some guitar strings and a humidifyer. I then proceded to make plans to hang out with Kassy and Robert on Saturday… Well, Saturday came around, and Robert was sick, so guess what, we didn’t get to hang out. So, what happened you might ask. Well, I ended up being myself and sulking around my house all day because to me at that moment in time the world was just out to get me. But, as luck would have it the whole world wasn’t out to get me. I ended up going to a movie with my brother and Sammi. So that day wasn’t totally wasted. And today, I hate holidays. Let’s just leave it at that. But I did have an awesome dinner with some friends. So that was more than nice.
I’m really short on time right now. I just felt bad for not having written anything all weekend. I hope that you had a great Easter. I hope that you had an awesome weekend. And I really hope that you’re able to go about your day tomorrow and make it through all the world throws your way.
