Good morning, world. It seems to me that today is going to drag on. I have an awards ceremony tonight at CAP. I’m getting the Amelia Earhart award. I hate ceremonies. They annoy me. I don’t get the point of them. Grr. I know that I got the award, why does it have to be such a big deal? Kinda like my Eagle Scout. I don’t really want a big thing for it, but I guess that’s what I’m going to have to get. I don’t need to be recognized. I don’t want to be. It’s something that I did. I’m the one that knows that I got it done. It’s not a big thing. But, I guess other people see it differently than I do. I can’t change that. So I shall write this little rant about it. Anywhoo, I hope that you enjoyed reading this little thought that came into Max’s head. So yeah, I have that ceremony tonight. I have to get my uniform ready. I have to make sure that all the other awards are going to get done right. I haveto make sure the Honor Guard is up to snuff. Oh, what a fun day it shall be. But hey, hopefully someone will be there to see it. I hope that the Kellys can make it. I think Rich is coming. I know the Marny is coming. But, alas, the family that lives on the other side of the country is not going to make it, go figure.

So, one of my friends sent me this super long message on facebook. It was actually quite nice to read. I enjoy getting messages like that it makes me think about life and what goes on in it. The prevailing theme in the message she sent me was that God is there for you, in the good times and the bad. At least that’s what I got out of it. I find that I don’t look to God in the good times. It takes the world falling down around me to look to him. I don’t know that that is how I’m supposed to be living my faith out. But, that’s how the world does it, or most certainly that’s how a lot of Christians are. Should I try and be different? I guess the whole idea that I’m running into is the idea of making your faith your own. It’s not my youth pastors. It’s not my parents. It’s not my friends. It’s mine. So how am I going to live for Him in all that I do? How am I going to look to him to be my shade in the hot summer field? I was reading in the book of Job this morning, now, there’s a guy that lost it all. And he didn’t blame God. I mean he had it all going for him. And he just says God gave it to me, and god can take it away. I really wish that I was able to do that. I think I find myself playing the blame game. It’s never my fault. I never do anything wrong. It’s always someonelses issue. It’s what they did. I guess that’s something that I really need to work on.

I’ve been reading a lot recently. I like books. Maybe a little to much. Is it wrong to go in the library ever week and take six books out and then go back a week later with them all read and then procede to get six more books? I get so many looks from the people there. I actaully had one person ask me if I was going to be the one reading all of the books. That made me laugh, to say the least.

Oh, I started putting music to some of the things that I’ve written. I’m going to try and take a video of one of them today so that I can post it up on facebook. One of my friends specifically asked me to, so I guess  that I will have to oblige. It will be interesting to see what people have to say about the sound of the songs. I don’t get why people always say that the things that I write are so good. I don’t see it. I honestly don’t. And to be honest, it really agrivates me. I mean, why can they see that I’m so awesome at it, but I can’t? I guess that’s just how it’s going to be though. Hopefully at somepoint I’ll be able to see what they see. It would sure be nice to be able to.

Well, I have to get going, here in a minute. I had an okay night last night. I went to help Robert out with his guitar learning. And I got to hang out with Kassy too. That was actually uber nice. I love haning out with them. Going there on Wednesday nights is starting to become one of the highlights of my week. I played one of the songs that I had written for them. I do believe that was the first time that I had ever played a song that I had written in front of anyone. Kassy liked it. Although she couldn’t hear my voice all that well. I’m just not confident. I need more practice. Oh, she wrote a little note that said “yay max” haha. I really liked it. (:

Okay. I’m going now. I have to get school and all that other stuff that I mentioned done. I hope that you have a really awesome day.

I've been looking for a lifeline
For what seems like a lifetime
I'm drowning in the pain
Breaking down again
Looking for a lifeline